A lot of stuff happened recently and I don't know where to began.And yeah, most of its based on my relationship issues and family. Matter of fact, ALL of it.Let's started off with what happened few nights ago.I was caught using my little brother's car to meet Alis and was caught by the police for hanging out in the car in a dark alley.Yeah, SCREWED up BIG TIME.My parents almost disowned my and want to threw me out.A other mistake was to lie to my dad for going out with Alis again.That was a other stupid mistake that not only cost me my dad to almost front snap kick me (although I managed to parry), and threw me out, but it almost cost my relationship with Alis to end.And recently, it almost ended due to my stupidity again...and I do not wish to write it down because the words Alis said to me was really hurtful to me.It's pretty much screwed up due to my stupidity...and I'm still regretting for everything till now. Although, the good thing is; since everyone is blaming me (even Alis) and they are in agreement of my stupidity, my family now is in good terms with Alis...yup, they FINALLY accepted her.For the cost of my existence, life, and family ties. Even if I disappear now (considering with the condition of my lungs...heh, it might not be long), I could rest in peace since my family finally likes Alis.**********************************On the other hand, today I finally did a tattoo on myself! :DYeah, it looks...horrible work...Well, it WAS my 1st time anyway...Here's a recording! Ignore the 1st few minutes, I was trying to adjust my camera angle...Cydney finally came and helped me with the recording though...Yeah, it's HARD doing on myself...After that, it's the filling time...a other random shot!Still in progress...haha...after when I finish, I asked Cydney to help to repair/touch up my work...Yeah...he had to repair ALOT on my work...Although, here's the end result! Yeah, I was satisfied with it. Although Jude tells me that I need to do a few more on my legs before I can actually do on people...My skills aren't that good yet...The next one will be on my thigh since it's easier to draw there. And my ASS won't be so cramped up next time...Although...the one on my thigh will be designed by my girlfriend...personally, I'm having second thoughts about it now....
Fucked up. That's the best sentence to describe today's event. Everything was okay, until Alis decided to do something stupid. She lied to me. And I caught her with a other guy.I have already warned her. If I caught her with a guy, I'll KILL THE GUY.Well, I didn't not but I did screwed with him. Tugged his hair from behind and questioned him, "WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO MY GIRLFRIEND?!". As he was whining for me to let go, he explained that he was her "abang angkat" (Big brother/k-gugu - known to be a respected/admired person for a person in middle school). Fuck, "abang angkat" always have intention with their "adik angkat"(Little sis - k - mui mui - adopted sibling of the "abang angkat", usually it's followers/admires). Nothing going on but two on two and wanted to go to the movies together? No WONDER she doesn't want me to see her "friend". Girl? He has a DICK, not a PUSSY.Today was supposed to be a fine day, I mean; we watched Kung Fu Panda together, we hold hands and laughed and happy and all. And everything went downhill when she decided to lie to me and go out with a other guy.A other miserable moment in my life that I'll never forget.No words can describe my current feelings now.Fuck.
Not road worthy my ass.I've been going out secretly meeting Alis the past 2 nights and I'm able to drive the car without any problems. Anyway, nothing much I have done today. Hang out at the shop as I design a dragon tattoo. I wish to post here but I'm scared someone else might steal my design...Sydney and Jude were impressed with my designs so far. It won't be long if I'm able to make my own trademark if I continue on designing my tattoos as the way it is now. Although my machine have YET to arrive...DxAnyway, met Alis before I wrote this down. Personally, I'm disappointed at myself. In fact, I'm beginning to hate my pervert self. We were in the car; kissing and touching, all steamed up in a lusty atmosphere, and I ruined it by being too horny for wanting more. Alis got pissed off and lost her mood. Yes, I'm a fucking, lustful pervert. And I'm starting to hate that. I meant, things was getting hot, I was masturbating her as we kiss, her hands was already creeping on my pants, unzipping it to masturbate for me...and she just stopped everything and pushed me away when I keep begging for sex. Seriously, I hate myself. It would be better off kissing and masturbating with each other rather than pissing Alis and ruining the atmosphere.I hate myself for that.Fuck.
